Verse 1

tryna find my mind
it ran away from home
sitting smoking drinking
drowning sorrows all alone
popped a mol
pops won't like that at all
frankly i can't remember the last time that i fuckin called
mom can't stand what i'm doing so she fuckin bawls
sorry mom i gotta follow what i love i gotta ball
understand i'm a man but sometimes tears fall
dropping over the edge free fall into the waterfall
meanwhile issues keep on circling
over and over i just keep on getting hurt again
always feeling the worst
can't find the words
and she got the nerve
drank too much now i swerve
feel invisible sometimes never heard
wake up in the morning without a signing bird
gotta grow up, mature
and continue to learn
but the issues im facin continue to sit
inside me and fuckin burn
Verse 2

old days pass and that's what i miss
misunderstood
all good in the hood mr robinson
i deserve these troubles for how much i fuckin sin
and lately i take for granted how much i fucking live
substance abusin
normallly i do this shit
till my stomach start pukin
should really hit the gym nastia lukin
but i cant help it when people are always lookin
they always lookin
at age 7 what's is heaven
hell is just a nightmare expression
move on to 11
when i started writing out of obsession
13 i was a teen and started asking all the questions
17 i first knew the feeling of depression
and 19 i still scream life is just a lesson
i hope in 10 years i'll be able to relieve all the tension
lonely cries, alone he dies i forgot to mention