Look i haven't felt the same way since a young age feel like putting a
Bullet through my brain asking the lord save me from this pain im
Stuck in the rain somethings gotta change but nothing
I still feel heart broken n im smoking
Not even helping the voices in my head yelling
They want me dead as i said so many times before
Ill be alright but i hide behind this mask that smiles
N i wonder if people can see through it and notice that im sad

I would tell people bout my pain but they judge n laugh n say get over it
Cause they don't know how it feels this way maybe some day
I can get a piece of my mind like they said so i can be the same
As them happy but till then i write my pain away on paper wit a pen
Or ill write it down on my phone the best time to be doing this stuff is
At night time i rewind to those good old days when i was a kid n id go
Play outside n be a little misfit not feeling pain but i can't n

When i open my eyes i realize this is my world now n i relie
On my fake smile to get me through the day when im dying inside
Everyday sleepless nights staying up crying yeah i ain't lying

Wear a pair of my shoes see how this pain holds u in the dark feeling alone
N scared so cold n it has u thinking that u might be their forever if
Something doesn't change but aye i still got my
Crew ig seems like they can't see through my mask n know whats wrong wit me
Tired of feeling unloved im impatient
Suicidal thoughts on a daily occasion
Its contagious with all this frustration
Im stuck in the same place its not what i illustrated
Im always stuck in my feels, just keeping real
Frustrating but im not the only one
Standing out like a smoking gun