[Chorus]
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
[Verse 1]
As my adversaries become dead and buried, I'm alone
I'm preparing the obituary, but it's bittersweet that they're gone
At the moment, I got too much time for over analyzin' all my flaws
Stress-eating all this Ben & Jerry's, Obey Shepard Fairey need a cause
I just want to roll, I just want to go
I pack my bags, but jet lag keeps me slow
I don't know what I should keep and let go
I don't know who I am down to my soul
[Chorus]
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
I don't know a place right now that I belong
I don't know a place right now that feels like home
[Verse 2]
Shit ain't been the same since 2012
I felt that hell
Hot summer, as I had to sleep on Jason's floor
All my belongings in a bag, know what I hated more
My family evicted, couldn't go back to college 'cause I owed some tuition
For taking a leave of absence the prior semester
Father swore that I was flunkin' out
When he refused to send me money on the phone, I started buggin' out
Then we ain't talk for like two years, till my sister's graduation
My friends lacked empathy for my dire situation
Not a man, but had to man up
Find a loft apartment in Brooklyn, a small room, I couldn't stand up
Had a girlfriend that loved me for who I was
Little did she know, he was tryna find who he is
If I could take it back, I don't know if I'd do it different
But she punched me in the stomach, broke up wit' her, ate the tears
This might be the first time, I've detailed the worst times
Now I feel old as fuck, can't get back the years
I'm cryin' as I write these words
"Black Pearl", tryna fight this curse
It gets harder tryna write these songs
When I can't even name a thing that I really fucking care about
Used to think home was the place you called your 'parent's house'- I was fuckin' wrong
And I know that line gon' trigger my mother
But if home is where the heart is, and I'm supposed to be a smart kid
Why do I keep looking in these places I get carded?
Liquor makes me a bad friend
Drinkin' makes me feel like giving up the admin of my whole life
I'm not feelin' fine anymore
My family isn't mine anymore
Rhode Island isn't mine anymore, New York isn't mine anymore
Big Apple and I'm dyin' at the core
[Outro]
Fuck!