[verse]
Ain’t got no label, got no manager, no team behind me
I’m just spellin out my struggle with a beat behind it
And i’m so tired of it, every song sounds the same
It’s just me talking pain
But that’s the story of my life
So what else I got to write
I could talk about the days when I was young and full of light
But that boy long gone
And people ask me why every track is a sad song
Cause i’m a sad man, i’m sick but you can't see it though
Cause my pain ain't physical, it's mental
And at my funeral I hope they play this instrumental
Now is it better to be happy and high, or be sad and sober
I ain't to good at sobriety, I got to much anxiety
And it filled my mind
And the hardest thing about it is disappointing mom
Cause she the only one I got
She the only one that seen my withdrawals
Throwing up, shaking, having seizures on the hard floor
That’s who i’d give my heart for
And imma love her till I see the bright lights trough the corridor and meet them angels at the door
I’m only 24, but life just keeps moving forward
I ain't got no car or no crib, I just can't afford it
Cause i’m only making penny’s of what i’m recording
Tell me that my time coming, i’m one in a million
Or tell me why I ain't got me a million
If I die right now, I couldn’t leave shit to my children
And that’s a damn shame, cause I inspire lives, and all I get is high fives
Pets on the back, a couple comments saying ‘good job’
And i’m so close to retirement, every song I write I say this probably be my last song
But then I think if I drop one more, then the world will finally catch one
But shit, they never catch on
And somehow I stay resilient, and I keep hope
Or maybe i’m just dealing with the fact, it’s either this or selling dope
And I ain't gonna fear?, cause that’s the life my daddy had
And I told momma that I choose another path
Don't wanna hurt her heart, then see mee trough that glass
I wanna see her eyes when we hang that wall with my plaques
So for you momma, I stay dedicated
And keep giving the world, this medication