Now I just wanna show my smile. But I wanna hide
They say love is like a rose. But roses die
The two options; Love Or Hate
So many choices; decisions
My family is too blind
Too ever notice a difference
A change in behavior
Success with more failure
The feeling that somethings wrong
The feeling friends are in danger
My brain fills with rage as I
Sit here and wait as I
Watch myself age and I
Want to create but I

I can't gather the courage
I'm just stuck feeling worthless
Know that I have a purpose
But I can't connect the circuit
To my thoughts behind the curtain
My head is hurting
Too much anxiety
Societal issues make my mind go searching
Search for answers. Get results just like I'm google
Too many answers to search through
Tryin to do things I'm not used to
When I used to like all these people, they used me
I don't want them to use you
I just don't wanna lose you
Father Forgive me
For you know that
I am always sinning
I take no interest
Partying with liquor
Fucking up my system
Excuse my language
That's a hang up on
How shitty I've been feeling
I'm sorry I feel no attraction and
Now that it's been a minute