I feel like the only one that's stuck up in the desert
Thinking 'bout taking my life but that won't make it better
I'll just be another statistic in some n***a's header
And I made a promise to my mother that I would never
But it's hard when you the only one that cares about you
Head down, trying to stop the fucking everyday blue
And I'll admit, I bit off more than I can chew
Despite my moral higher being, still I gotta choose
Between the light and the dark
It's still a fight in my heart
Self-sabotaging evеrything, right from the start
If this is all a play, then I'm not really liking my part
If god is rеal then tell me, do I gotta die in this arc?

Sitting in a room with myself when the sun go down
No water but I'm feeling like I could drown
Got a bunch of money sitting in my bank account
But I'm still not happy when my heart hit ground

But it don't mean nothing to me
I don't wanna be numb
I wake up every day
Wishing I had a gun
So I could finally do it
In my head, "fuck everyone"
I don't want the attention
I don't wanna see the sun
I wanna leave all the evil and demons
People that breathe to be leeches
I cannot see all the pieces
Everything is not peaches
You like me when it's convenient
Thinking that I ever need it
The fall never been so cold
Sit here everyday aging I been feeling old
Keep my mouth shut with all the shit that I know
You won't see me different so how could I grow?
Took a quick trip now I'm missing that room

Sitting in a room with myself when the sun go down
No water but I'm feeling like I could drown
Got a bunch of money sitting in my bank account
But I'm still not happy when my heart hit ground