SeeNick
Forgiveness
[Intro]
And to remember, it was a sin to kill a mockingbird?
(Why?)
Well, I reckon because mockingbirds don't do anything but make music for us to enjoy
They don't eat people's gardens
They don't nest in the corn cribs
They don't do one thing, but sing their hearts out for us

[Verse 1: SeeNick]
How could I kill a mockingbird
If it’s staring back and mocking me?
I hit the ground, life is glaring back and flaunting teeth
This is when my past lashes back it’s haunting me
The night before, I was meant to come home
I sat in my room with no messages on my phone
No people to turn and talk to no safe and comfortable zone
For the first time in months, I was truly alone
And that's all that I could be
And that's all that I could be
And that's all that I could be, and that's all
I couldn’t shapeshift or transform
Wind whipping through the window was raising a sandstorm
The dust that collected when I gathered no lichens suddenly
Bust unprotected as they slashed through the silence
As I absently-minded reclined and gradually sighed
How the hell did I manage to lose track of these lines?
And slip off of the path, the place where gravity pines
To grab at me attack and cease the masterpiece rhymes
And that’s all that I could say

[Verse 2: Kat Tan]
Forgiveness? Mine?
What is forgiveness and why do you want it from me?
Forgive?
Forgive what?
You mean, look past your wrongs and see only the bright laughing parts of your soul
Forgiveness?
Or, do you want me to dust your wrongs on a philosophical balance
Strip your wrongs bare to the bone, redress the hurt you dealt me so recklessly, and clothe it with fake gold?
Or, forgiveness
Look your wrongs straight in the face
Straight at the smoky eye rolled cheeks to pay
Laugh at myself
I thought you were somebody else
It was stupid of me
I'm sorry
This kind of forgiveness?
I don't know what you mean by it, besides
You've given me no evidence for why I shouldn't just forget
What?
Who?

[Verse 3: SeeNick]
I said I love you, knowing you loved me more
What else was I to do, know what I’m running for
Not office, though I seemed to govern your actions
Your emotions and reactions dependent on satisfaction
If ever I’m mad or sad then immediately I’m captain
Whenever you needed help and I’m busy that’s when I cash in
Relaxing, glad that commitment remains ephemeral
And then when you do see me I’m no longer invincible
When you finally see me you’re no longer invisible
When it hits me I’m terrible at this that’s when I’m miserable
Never could break your heart when you might be in a depression
Never thought I’m the problem or catalyst or a mention
Ducking all of your messages living with false pretenses
That everything is the best when it’s really awful and hectic
It’s not an apology, it’s not a confession
It’s a fact a statement observation learning a lesson
And that's all that I could say

[Bridge: JT]
I know neither of us perfect
But we used to be worth it
Look back, only feel like it was worthless
Remember when the thought of you made me nervous
Future beautifully uncertain
Now all we do is hurt, tag-team turned to versus
I used to be wordless
Now I'm churning out verses
Losing you with the allegations
I got no inspiration
We went together like thoughts on pages
And now we're lost in translation
I want to move on, but you always feel like staying
I want to move on, but you always feel like staying

[Outro: SeeNick]
I thought I did it all, apparently I didn’t so I got to get it off
Of my chest, one last time to relieve the stress
The press, no longer try to impress because
If I make the wrong impression
The songs can step into the wrong section, and I
Try, to reach but my mind realizes when I try
I end up seething
That is not the goal, that is not the goal, that is not the gold
Medal I can fold
No, see, I know that it’s made
Of plastic trying to win me back said we had this
In our hands but it’s lost now
So I want to switch the song now, want to take it all down
And that’s all and that’s all I can, I , can say and that’s all I can say!