[Intro]
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(Ayy, Benjamin, he got Benjamins)
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]
Look in my eyes, it look like I need to pray, huh
Sure hurt inside, but I still smile in your face, huh
I wanna cry, but I can't let you see me cry
I wanna die, but I can't go until I know you good
It was all love, then n***as hated, but I knew they would
It be all fun gettin' faded 'til you get addicted
The system really prejudiced and racist, but they call it business
Police kill a n***a, call another policе as the witness
Homie kill a n***a, wе do twenty on a joint sentence
This where we gon' let the choir sing, it's a joint sentence
I would pray for change, but ain't no change coming
I would pray for rain, but I don't wanna change my fit
I would say her name, but I don't wanna chase that bitch
Actin' like I ain't gon' be sick, like I hate that bitch
Sometimes I be in a mood and I hate that shit
Sometimes I just want you and I hate that shit
Sometimes my ma think I don't love her, I don't call enough
Sometimes my pops think I don't love him, I don't call enough
Some of my sisters feel like I don't love 'em, we don't talk too much
Some of the homies feel like I don't love 'em, I ain't seen 'em lately
[Chorus]
I been going through things
Sometimes I do let the phone ring
I know you be worried 'bout me
I don't want you to worry 'bout me
Yeah, 'cause I be worried 'bout you
You know I'd be hurt without you
Know I got you (Know I got you)
Just know I got you
Even when I'm gone
I been going through things
Sometimes I do let the phone ring
'Cause I know you be worried 'bout me
Yeah, I don't want you to worry 'bout me

[Verse 2]
And y'all know I wouldn't give this up for nothing
I done got so famous that I'm famous to my cousins
Everybody think I made it, but this shit ain't really nothing
All the times I had to smile when I was so sick to my stomach
All the times I said I couldn't and I couldn't, but you ain't believe me
All the times I said I would, you said I wouldn't 'cause you couldn't see it
Mommy and my daddy both sick, I'm just glad I'm breathing
I smile heavy as fuck 'cause it ain't easy, but I know they need me
I been going through things, yeah
I'ma be alright, so don't you worry 'bout me
Long as I'm breathing, I'ma try and make it easy on you
Long as I got it and you need it, you know I'ma come through
Running, speeding, flying
Don't you treat me like you don't know who I am
Told you I love you and you told me I was lying
Don't you treat me like you don't know who I am
[Chorus]
And I been going through things
Sometimes I do let the phone ring
I know you be worried 'bout me
I don't want you to worry 'bout me
Yeah, 'cause I be worried 'bout you
You know I'd be hurt without you
Know I got you (Know I got you)
Just know I got you
Even when I'm gone

[Outro]
Know, I feel guilty
I feel like I don't talk to my mom as much as I should and it really bother me
I hope she always know where my heart is 'cause I don't always feel like I'm doing enough
With my pops, I feel like
I know he going through a lot right now and I can't be there for him the way he want me to be there for him
So I just, I be feeling guilty because I know he going through so much and it's just helpless, it ain't nothing I can do
I just hope he know I'm always there for him
And with all the wrong going on in the world, the hardest place to look is in the mirror
I hear 'em talk so bad about a n***a and all that shit get passed around
I just wonder if it's as hard for them as it is for me
Counting my pockets for they own profit
Don't know what I got or what I make
Just wondering what they could take
It's okay, that's what I'm here for
It's a lot I notice
I notice when I say no, that your care for me often switches focus
But it's okay, that's what I'm here for
I do know that if roles were reversed and I was down and I was hurt
You wouldn't give me your last, you would put your priorities first
But it's all good 'cause you know I'd never ask
I'd rather go out bad than let you know that I'm on my ass
'Cause in my heart, I know my mills due like wet grass
And I'm a hustler, it ain't nothin' for me to get not one bag
Everything ain't always what it seems
Nightmares often get mistaken for dreams
And I don't know what it's like being you, but I can tell you it ain't easy being me
Yeah, the pressure make me stay to myself
When y'all call, I don't always answer 'cause I don't always got nothin' good to say
Everybody go through they own shit and I don't wanna put my problems on nobody
I know y'all worried about me, but I don't want y'all to worry 'bout me because I'm worried 'bout y'all
And I love you with my whole heart
Shoot, the ones that love me the most done hurt me the worst, but I understand and I forgive, I just hope they forgive me too
I been to more funerals than anything and to be absent from the body is to be present with the heart
When you die is when everybody get a chance to have you, you know?
You know, sometimes I wish I wasn't—
You know, sometimes I wish it wasn't gon' be, or it wasn't gon' take that long to get you to understand
But, you know, if sooner than later, tell my child who I was through in and through out
And make sure they know my love the same as you do
TwoFr
Even when I'm gone