I get on my knees and I pray I’m just looking for one single reason to stay

But I never get no answers, so anxious

This weight on my chest could make bones shatter

Been thinking bout death like it don’t matter

When I get ahead I still go backwards

Been stuck on a cycle on daily I feel like nobody could save me just pray it don’t break me

Been going through hell

And I fake a smile so nobody could tell

Been fighting my vices not going too well

And honestly I don’t know if ima fail

But still I prevail

I don’t know where I lost hope or if hope even matters when you not devoted to change

I don’t know why I still feel in my heart that In the end I deserve all this pain
Living in darkness it constantly rains

Nothing but bad memories in my brain

That I can’t shut out I been going insane

And no one even knows I’m going through things

So apathetic, like why am I the one that’s apathetic

Every choice I feel like I regret it

I don’t get it I don’t feel like I’m in control of my head it

Don’t it make any sense

Try to repent, I try to forgive but I can not forget

I can’t turn away If it’s still in my head

You can’t let it go if it follows you everywhere you go again

When will it end

Why can’t I ever find a way to vent
All the of the problems I hold up within

Why do I feel like I’m already dead

I don’t know when

My life turned to a bad dream

That’s constantly stuck on the same screen

I try to reach out but I can’t scream

Can’t find the words when you can’t breath

Can’t find the way when you can’t see

I'm disappointed if you ask me

Cause I know in my heart what I can be