Erica Mason
The Conversation
THE CONVERSATION
[Verse]
You see, the real me
I see, who I should be
Who I am now, nah it’s not good enough
I’m everything you’re not but to you that’s just enough
See I put so much pressure on myself to be like you
Cause I’m afraid what they gone say when they see I’m not you
So many people man they want to be just like me
But if they saw my flaws
So many people wouldn’t like me
But who am I to criticize how you created me
I see brokenness bit you see beauty in how you’re shaping
You gave this breath of life and yea I know I keep on blowing it
But in my imperfections, you get the glory you posed to get
Nah I’m not perfect and that’s just an understatement
I can’t do this w out you somebody underline that statement
Yea I’m a leader and I know these people watch me
If I make one mistake then they label this stuff hypocrisy
But they don’t even know what I been through
And they don’t even know where I came from
If it wasn’t for you always holding me down
Then I know that I wouldn’t have came up
Yea
And that’s real talk, but they don’t wanna hear that
They just want more songs, they just want more rap
They want a perfect album and a perfect artist
But only the creator can define what perfect art is
And truth be told man I’m my biggest critic
See I’m too afraid to fail
Cuz I don’t think that I can win this
But who do I serve is it man or my def
Dang
Maybe it’s both idk all I know is I’m tryna be perfect and claim that I’m giving these people some hope but I’m losing my hope
Cuz I know that it’s not realistic
I know that I’m broken
I’m ms fix it
I know I need help
But I never will listen
I’m running this race and I’m never gone finish
If I ain’t got you
That’s what I always say
It’s one thing to quote it
Shoot but I don’t act that way
But to be real I’m just afraid to disappoint myself
Not to mention God my church and everybody else
But in the battle of my mind I hear your peaceful voice
Daughter I chose you way before I even had a choice
And I accept you
Even when you can’t accept yourself
You’ll never be perfect that’s why I defeated death
When you popped those pills I was the one who swollod them
And when you cried those tears I was the one who bottled them
I know you hit rock bottom, so you bottle things but I am your rock the only thing sitting at the bottom is me
See I am your god
I’m the greatest thing that can ever happen in your whole life
You don’t even know
You don’t even know
You don’t even know what it took for me to make you
And have to turn around and break you so you can be who I made you
And now you mad that I made you
I paid a price to save you
So you gotta let me, gotta let gotta let me change you
See transitioning has so many phases
Life is like a tour so many stages
And I everywhere you look it seems like different faces
But I promised you mine it never changes