Intro:

Yeah
I’m just, trying to find peace
Yeah
It’s like, I don’t even know

Verse 1:

I’m addicted to my phone cuz I’m tryna escape
All of the pain that I feel I keep running away
Somebody asked the other day
How you depressed and you a Christian
You supposed to love God I don’t get it
And that’s the problem
Most people hide behind religion
And when you speak you truth
Most people don’t wanna listen
I talk about the pain cuz what I’m going through is real
And my relationship with God is the way I learned to heal
I wish talk about the thangs were too afraid to share
Wish we would stop pushing away the ones who really care
I really want love, but I struggle with abandonment
People come and Go
And I’m trying to learn how to handle it
Way too many exes don’t wanna know who is next
It’s hard to let go when you hold on to regrets
Cards to my chest
I don’t wanna be exposed
But I’m writing you this song as a key to my soul

Interlude:

If I’m Real
I’m addicted to anything that will bring me peace
I ain’t saying that it’s right
I’m just trying to find a way to cope
Yea


Verse 2:

Why has my phone become the only place I seem to feel safe?
In a crowd full of people I’m so quick to escape
Why do I scroll just focus on the things that I hate
Compare myself to other people who could never relate
But They look happy
And I know it ain’t all real
But just because I know it
It don’t change the way I feel
I’m trying not to text my ex
We so toxic together
Old habits die hard when you wanna feel better
I want piece
I wanna feel love without somebody changing me
Looking in the mirror want to Love what I see
Wanna know that you got options but you only choosing me
Want that happy ever after this was always supposed to be
Type of love that you never want to leave
But I can’t expect from you what I never giving to me
Trying to learn the good and the ugliest parts of me
So I can open up my heart and give somebody all of me
Outro:

So I guess the only thing is, is that, I’m trying to figure it out
Just like everybody else
I mean I’ve got good days
Sometimes, really bad days but
I wanna learn how to love you
With all of me
The broken, the bruised
I want you to see everything
So you can love me for who I really am