10 Reasons I Could Never Stay

One
You weren't ready to dance when I was
You let my hand go in the essence of a mosh pit and I've been lost since

Two
The night you left I fell asleep on the floor of my shower
I was so broken
I fell to my knees and asked God if he could take me

Three
You would have let him take me

Four
I was willing to give up a part of me for you
I was willing to compromise my dreams for you
I was ready to be the person you needed
You never really needed me the way I needed you to

Five
I talked to my grandmother this morning and
She asked me where the princess she remembered raising went
She asked me how I could be good for anyone if I wasn't good for me
She asked me if I were looking for kings who were looking for queens
And how somewhere along the way I lost myself so they all missed me
Six
You loved me the way my father always loved my mother and I no longer accept men with conditional traits

Seven
As a woman I am obligated to continue loving
As a man you are eager to continue lusting
I was made gracefully with spiritual glitter and faithful glue
I was given wings that you tried to cut through
I was born with a voice that you tried to silence and a body that you tried to shame me of whenever spilling our love into someone else's
It took me a while to see that, someone like you doesn't deserve a heart that only someone like myself was willing to offer

Eight
I'm starting to find myself
And while picking up the pieces to my unfinished puzzle I'm realizing that you were never meant to fit the picture

Nine
You left scars on my skin that will never let me forget what love isn't

Ten
You were wrong about me
You said I could never live without you
You thought I'd stick around for you to figure out how beautiful we could be
But I've planted scriptures in your palms that no one else will ever understand but all will see and
Then they'll wonder what happened
Then they'll ask about me
Tell them how I used to hold on because I loved you enough to never let you forget me
Then let them know that I've become forgiving and you've grown to resent me
I've grown from every verse I've wrote and every word you've spoke and you've learned my love made itself permanent on its own
You never were into practicing what you preached but I've decided it's okay that you let me go too
I've already set you free