[Verse]
I'm losing my way again
I won't even try to pretend
Like I made the change I said I would
Not sure if I can do the things I said I could
I'm so sick of this cycle
I have grace thanks to Jesus' revival
And it's like I abuse it, I don't wanna misuse it but I do it
It's some hard times I'm going through, it
Seems like I try to use that as justification for my evil
Along with the fact that I feel like 2 different people
My thoughts are contradictory
But over death, Jesus had a victory
And I'm hoping I'm not hopeless
God can you make sure I can't find where the rope is?
The wages of sin is death and I'm killing myself slowly
There is no difference between the new me and the old me
The same man that spits fire is the cold me
Many a time someone has told me
That Jesus forgiveness covers all sins
And they can't even begin
To describe the mass of his love
That my mistakes are covered by the grace from above
But I'm still so down to Earth that I feel closer to Hell
My heart's fighting with my mind if you couldn't tell
I'm terrified, but can't complain if I get what I deserve
Is it a blessing? Is it a curse? Was I meant to walk this Earth?
So hard to stay sane when you're on Satan's turf
And it's worse when you believe that you're the worst
Telling myself that the flames are where I belong
But as you can tell from the vocals of the song
He'll give us what we need, and man that isn't wrong
So, I need a saved soul, Jesus can you provide?
I've been wearing the leaves but im sick and tired of trying to hide
You know my heart, just tear me apart
I don't want to burn, give me a new start