​idealism
SOBER
[Intro: Spoken]
This is, uh, some classic poetry
Some, like, highschool "I'm on my feeling, called you up to vent"
That's what it's like

Yeah, I feel so generic, everything I conjure's a common aesthetic
And I've written so many poems for you that I'm no longer poet, I'm looking pathetic

Far from prophetic, I spent youth a mute
Now saying how I feel these days is my most desired attribute

Mostly to contribute to the comments you provide
While you speak I'm pleasantly pondering on you and I

Oh my oh my, the plot thickens
I listen with blind folded eyes
As your syllables paint back and forth
I rest easy along your sighs

I'm not who you think I am, no no no
My castle's along the sand, yes yes yes
No trophies proceed me
Or valiant knights line at my command

I'm top a tower sulking writing every sweet nothing
Don't press, I might confess that this was all bluffing

I got a soft spot for you and those Instagram filters
You the type to keep the flowers singing so they never wither

Emitting ill ember, you're a mother fucking star girl
And I'm the fucker trying to tell your mother you're my whole world

Oh, that was corny?
Rearrange the phrase to sound clever but honestly there's nothing clever about me

Like controlla'
Young rock n' rolla'
Piece together all the past rhymes I tore up
Keep the woods rolled up
Crystal liquor poured up
Remind of me what I love so I can stay sober (x2)
(Yeah, so I could stay sober)
(Yeah, so I could stay, yeah)

I wish I could write you the sweetest song
Cause all of me is hardly worth anything at all
The reasons we make up always feel so potent
When it comes to self love when we speak it's choking

(Yeah)

Boy, it’s a struggle
Life is the light looking out through the rubble
Gut out the goods and you’re stuck with that tundra
Lightning strikes 'fore you releasin' that thunder

Girl, I’ve just been there, I swear it’s the coldest
Head ready to clench up, too hazy to focus
Home when it matters, alone with these with woes
No rivals to blame, I’m my own greatest foe so

Take my hand, cause I’m afraid of dying
I saw the face of God and penitence chimed in
I seek out the grails granted I wasn't chose
But to live for a moment with you, I go

Like controlla'
Young rock n' rolla'
Piece together all the past rhymes I tore up
Keep the woods rolled up
Crystal liquor poured up
Remind of me what I loved so I can stay sober (x2)
(Yeah, so I could stay sober)
(Yeah, so I could stay, yeah)

Love isn't simple
Love isn't kind
In the end it’s constant cause it's between you and I
It's a perfect divide
It's purely divine
Like ventin' to God and getting that reply

But when I see you the hole depression carved and caved in
Fills to brim, like the tub I lay in
And washes away the sins of my past days
Into your arms like a raging tidal wave

I, I really need you when the rain drops (Yeah)
I really need you when the wolves flock (Yeah)
I really need you till my brain rots (Yeah)
Will you want me till my life stops? (Yeah) (x2)

Like controlla'
Young rock n' rolla'
Piece together all the past rhymes I tore up
Keep the woods rolled up
Crystal liquor poured up
Remind of me what I loved so I can stay sober (x2)

(Yeah, so I could stay sober)
(Yeah, so I could stay, yeah)

[Outro: Spoken]
I just wanna, I wanna say thank you
To anyone who listened to these songs
I wrote some stuff during a difficult year
And I picked these to record
Cause I felt that they embodied the strongest rawest emotion
Of what I was feeling at the time
So I hope you enjoyed 'em and
Just, I'm very thankful, to anyone who listens
It's very easy to not feel that you deserve a small bit of love that you might receive
But I truly take it to heart, as a human being
And I hope I can give that back, to anyone who listens
So thank you so much, and yeah be safe
Have a great life
See you next time

Daft