Yeah

Tell me if ya feel this way
Every night’s starting to feel the same

Every night it’s like I’m breaking up a fight
Between my past and my future thoughts
Every night I’m either putting messages in bottles
Or bottles on the wall

Tell me if ya, yeah

Tell me if ya, if ya, if ya

Dove off the tallest mountain
Showed up but never found it
Did you throw off your childish emotions
Did you grow up and call it hopeless

He knows the rule: you can be anything!
He’s a prince he’s a pauper, he’s a kid and a lost one
A fool’s a fool, a king’s a king, but he won’t let it sting
As he moves unmoved between these dreams, control is being

Get that fix, hit that soul, switch it up, in your head
Granddad sits, head in hands, what’s his role
Doesn’t the kid understand
That a whole world
Would rest in his past
Or at least it would
If he would step on the gas
The kid wasn’t growing but he had growing pain
And if they weren’t his own family they wouldn’t even know his name
Actually, if he had the chance to choose
Between this life and a life anew, he knew he’d still stay glued
Wondering what if he didn’t really know

Not who to be but who would see the soul that sits inside
To fool the king they’ll kiss the ring and lie
So be known alone or be no one and die
Vanity
It’s slow but it takes the controls

So he dove off the tallest mountain
Rescue showed up but they never found him
He’d said he’d throw off his childish emotions
And never grow up to call it all hopeless

Dove off the tallest mountain
Showed up but never found it
Throw off your childish emotions
Grow up and call it (hopeless)
Nah nah, I’m still here

And if man’s reach should exceed his grasp, then fuck it
I ain’t living by proverbs
I ain’t practice what you preach
Even if I’m plagued by trauma
Parasites in me, I’m no host for ghosts, I’ll go upstairs and peek
Even if what I’m chasing’s hollow
Even if my brain’s ingrained to operate slow
My soul is unstained
I can change my name, break the chains, erase the pain
But aren’t I me all the same?

Don’t fall for this
I fought for this
But in these dreams where I can’t fly
There’s no fall from bliss
But don’t fall for this
You fought for this
It’s all for this
Don’t let it shake your confidence

But the body fought me back with a heart attack
So I guess it’s not that I lack conviction
Doctor, tell me, overwhelm me, what is it?
Let me fix it, let me fix me
I can fix me, I can fix me, I can fix me
Denial
There’s no fixing a history

So grow up and call it all hopeless
One time I dove off the tallest mountain
One time I showed up but never found it
One time I threw off my childish emotions
One time I grew up and called it all hopeless
I dive and dive and I survive
Every time more thankful to be alive
Thank god

Rock bottom but less blind
So wherever my body lie
Don’t chalk it up to not enough walk of the talk
Bottom rock to the top’s just
A lap around the block

The only rule is that I am something
A tree, a rock, a fire burning
My grief, my thoughts, my yearning
And the grace of the journey