Painting portraits in my head, I’m so devoid of your cadence
Colour you in hues of red, the canvas we created when I felt like a tourist in my own skin, going through the same shit everyday
I was growing a garden that would never come to bloom
I can’t shake this self-complacent curse
And you know that I know that you know that
I’ve been searching for a way out
Did you find out that I’m rotting myself to the core?
Looming like the smoke in your bedroom, a permanent crutch used just to guide us through the freezing cold
Exhale and let me go
Never feeling whole when you’re not home
Am I supposed to be alone?
I tell myself it’s what I need, I won’t fit into this mold
I’ve had enough of it
I’ve been searching for a way out, did you find out that I’m rotting myself to the core?
Looming like the smoke in your bedroom, a permanent crutch used just to guide us through the freezing cold
I traded change for growth