[Verse 1]
I bet I'm losing my life when I'm twenty five
I keep it real with you, I hope I fucking die
But last night, I had a dream that I was fine
I took a trip to a better place, I was happy with my life
I found some people really give a fuck about me
I found some people feel they couldn't live without me
I woke the fuck up, realized that I'll never meet any of the people that I thought I fucking had
Turn around, straight back to cigarettes, I add
So much pain to the people who around me
Nothing I can gain and my family just doubt me
Try and aim the blame at somebody I live without, see

[Chorus]
I'm out of it, I tried to start to give a shit
And if I had to choose, I'm picking money over happiness
At least my fucking money, I can keep
But if I'm happy, I know I'm about to lose it in a week

[Verse 2]
See, permanent satisfaction just doesn't exist
At least I never felt it, I'm just speaking from me
Happy as a kid, I guess it's something I miss
At least I'm not dead, I'm just tryna be better for the people that I care about
It's black inside my heart, don't fucking wear it out
I wish I knew how to talk to you, I just scream and shout
I guess it doesn't matter
[Chorus]
I'm out of it, I tried to start to give a shit
And if I had to choose, I'm picking money over happiness
At least my fucking money, I can keep
But if I'm happy, I know I'm about to lose it in a week