If I knew last year what I know now
I wouldn't have put myself through hell
To wind up standing in a mess of everything

I tried my best to make this work
I put you first and the only thing I watched you do was bury me in dirt

I had my selfish reasons for leaving you behind
I'm picking up my feet and I will find a better life
One where I'm not sick of fucking fighting all the time
One where I'm not scared to say what's really on my mind

As I collapse, don't put me back
I can't sleep and I get dizzy when I stand up on my feet
I lay in bed, just like I'm dead
As you weep and complain about my lack of energy
I had my selfish reasons

As you dig your hole I thought I'd let you know
I'm not coming back
I'm tethered to the way things used to be
If I don't get some sleep my thoughts may start to seem unclear to me
Non-cognitively conscious so it seems
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