All These Best Friends

All these best friends that I've lost over time

Split souls turning out never to be mine

They laugh at my faces when they hear my name

When I tried to show my real face they went before I came



I never knew a man could feel this small

A whole world around me but nobody at all

I've learned my lessons that life can be hard

Every stab to my soul still throws me of guard



And I know this ain't not the ending

Of a world I have yet to start comprehendig

And I know this ain't not the end

Of a life I'm just not meant to fit in



I'll go on hoping I'll be the man

That stayed right here as the other ran

I don't feel worthy or ready to receive

Another set of legs just dying to leave



And I hope someday I'll find a light

That shows me my thoughts back then were somehow right

And I'll get to carry the smile

I've had in my pocket for more than quite a while



And I now this ain't not the ending

Of a life I have yet to start comprehending

And I know this ain't not the end

Of A world I won't ever fit in



Show me where you are

Show me if you're far

Tell me if you want me to

Show how much I still miss you





Sometimes I'm starting to think

This ship is starting to sink

And we haven't even sailed away