[Verse]
Yo, I used to have it all
But now my back's against the wall
Like I'm Paul
Feels like everybody's watchin' everything
I'm doing, praying on my downfall
And my shortcomings
You just want me to fuck up
To have a laugh at my expense
But I'm taking down the broadcast
I don't give a fuck
Y'all just don't have any sense
In your heads
And it spreads around the town
Where y'all crowd around me
Like you're feds
Is this what is meant to be my fate?
I can't even ask the girl I want out on a date
Without getting parole from the state
So I'll just wait
Every day I'm losing more and more weight
Because I don't give a shit enough
To keep my head on straight
I'll never take the shot
To prove my raps are fuckin great
And if I was still in school
My stress would be tankin' my grades
And I couldn't learn my trade
And I couldn't graduate
And I couldn't move away
And I'd still live in my parent's basement to this day
And that's where I would stay
I was thinkin' of callin' this shit Jerry Springer
But I thought that area might be a little gray
But I really do have more slaps than Chris Brown though
Aw fuck, I'm sorry
I just needed a little controversy
One day, I'm gonna have more money
Than the billionaire, Christian Grey
When I left that school y'all just wanted to hear
What LEEJOE would stutter and say
But today I'm comin' to you
Live and in stereo waves
Ain't no Hannah Baker, but also not quite Clay
Hopefully, I can distance myself from the older days
Of 9 Days of Rain
As NøtInVain
They showed me 8 ways of pain
Only one stuck by me but the rest showed me the blame
One of these days, I'll be big enough to relocate
To the Big Apple or maybe to LA
But maybe that's just too crazy, I know
And I won't just follow in Shady's shadow
Maybe I should just keep my regular job
Don't think I'll ever have a line to make them
Drop their jaws
And just say "whoa" like Black Rob
I'm a bad boy for life and
I ain't going nowhere
You can catch me mixin' down
In my studi' software
You'll hear it on the news soon
How I went fuckin' insane
And I just disappeared
And I can't do anything right
I mean I only grew like half a beard
I feel like everybody's fuckin' watchin' me, yo
Yeah I feel like Jim Carrey in The fuckin' Truman Show
I'm feeding my dog and
You're lookin' in my window
Or when I'm thinkin' those thoughts
Just laying on my pillow
Y'all are sleepin' on me, though
You must be narcoleptic
I'm about to drop
The fuckin' album of the year
Y'all better go and cop it
I'm about to become the number one
Motherfuckin' topic
I did it all myself
Ain't nobody else up in the cockpit
I don't got time to deal with any more bullshit
I've been up in my room just wearing the same outfit
And I'm about to have a cardiac attack
If I get any more negative feedback
Like when people say that they like me less
Than Cardi or Kodak
I'm the intellectual insomniac
You know my greatest album's droppin' soon
Now be like Star-Lord and put that shit on your Zune
Motherfucker