[Hook]
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but im in denial
All those names that i've been told
They're running through my head
Like im running miles
How long while this go on for?
I don't know but i am sure it will be a while

[Bridge]
I can't take this pain no more
Liquor bottles there ain't no more
All this stress theres plently more
All these people yea i gave them all
Where are they now
They come and go
I ask myself Why do i try
I dont know
I dont know

[Verse1:Erik]
Can't trust nobody these days
Promises theyre all fake
Everybody is fake
Why so many damn hate
I can't even trust my family
They try to me Bring me down
I tell them i do it for them
Suddenly My dreams all drown..
I drown myself in my tears (yea)
I drown myself in my fears (yea)
I glance here from the stairs
How everybody seems to live well
Though they might be just like me
Fighting demons just like me
Masking their pain with a smile just like me
See
Ive been holding this in for way to long
Hear my words of distress
Ive been tryna remain strong
But Its time to finally confess
What i feel inside so i wrote it down
So the world can hear my sound
Thats so profound
Before its to late
And im not around

[Hook]
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but im in denial
All those names that i've been told
They're running through my head
Like im running miles
How long while this go on for?
I don't know but i am sure it will be a while

[Verse2: Erik]
I wonder if love was not meant for me
Cause everytime i try they break me
I give them my all they take advantage
I give them my heart
They give me fragments in return
And i return cause i just do not learn
Its hard to discern
Who will overturn and hurt you
I think you about you everyday
Wondering if you are okay
Living my life day by day
Looking through my pictures and i see your face
Memories start flashing
Open up the numberpad and start dialying
Cancel the call cause i can't do this
And im back to where i started
See i tried and i tried
But you still werent content
Gave you all i had but wanted me to conquest
More than the world for you
And if it weren't for you
I would've never realized the lies you told me
To blinded with this love
That diguised it from me
Everyone told me that your love wasn't real
I ignored their appeal
And continued to fall for you
Cause i knew inside you felt something for me
No matter what people told me
They tried to show me
I tried to show them
The angel that you were for me
You were forming a person in me
That i never knew that i could be
But Now that youre gone
I honestly dont know what's left of me..

[Hook]
Lately it's been hard for me to smile
Try so hard but im in denial
All those names that i've been told
They're running through my head
Like i'm running miles
How long while this go on for?
I don't know but i am sure it will be a while

[Verse3: Erik]
I cry myself to sleep
It seems that All these dreams
Are just some fantasy
To all my family
I told myself that one day
I'd try make a change
Like martin luther king
Hes still remembered to this day
I was barely 13
When i decided to start rapping
I told a few people
They just started laughing
My friends started to fade away
Now im alone and on my way
Still tryna find my purpose
Music helps me cope with the pain
Life hasnt been same
Ever since i moved to a different state
But here is where i picked up the mic
And began my journey
Experienced the fast life
Surrounded by people
Who wanna live the same life
In the studio all day and all night
Hoping our voice gets heard
But its hard with all this new music
Which is now preferred it so absurd
Do you live the same shit thats all slurred
On the verge of quitting
But J Cole taught me to never omit
And stay commited
So here i am sitting
In this room alone Thinking
Of ways to possibly
Finally make a difference..