Big Ben
Trust
[Verse 1]
I can't do this anymore
But I swore I would leave this at the door
I'm just bored maybe bored cause I've never had to deal with this shit before
You try to start a war with your emotions but they got an army bigger than oceans
Man I'm just broken but my heart is so open but now I gotta close it
I'm just hoping that I find a perfect moment where I stop all these explosions
Someone give me a motive and a notice so I can make some vocal poems

[Verse 2]
Who the fuck is on my side
You lied, you hide, you cried, you tried
I'm denied go beside count my stride
I decide how to provide (Yeah)
Set aside I'm classified this don't apply I won't advise I can't deny
I give advice it's not precise I analyze it satisfies
Just realize the fact that I improvise the sacrifice just to survive
I have a drive you can't deny I am revived
I am alive I'm terrified but I can't testify cause I am wearing a disguise (Yeah)

[Verse 3]
Why you acting so crazy? For safety?
I don't get it maybe but you've been an asshole lately and it's been happening daily (Yeah)
That's why you never get ladies cause it's just lazy (Ayy)
Man it's kinda creepy that you fill em up with drinks and then try to be sneaky
Man they don't want a man who's this fucking greasy and sleazy (Yeah)
You gotta stop being freaky cause I'm not playing you see me
Cause you've been making every girl feel so god damn uneasy (Ayy)
Yeah

[Chorus]
Yeah I'm mad, or I'm sad, I don't know it's a fad
Got me moving like a nomad without a plan (Yeah)
Cause I can't find a single person that can understand (Yeah)
Not sure when this shit began, got me sinking in the sand
Got the music in demand, this shit slams
But it ain't about the plan, holding it back like a dam when I be moving 'cross the land
Using everything I got to withstand, but my mind thinking that I'm contraband like (Ayy)

[Verse 4]
Can't believe that I got that call from you
I didn't want it to be true, cause I invested everything into you, into us
Got me losing all my trust, all respect
I would never expect or neglect
All I ever wanted to do was to protect
"Change the subject" (No)
Man you put on a show and decided to throw what we had out the window
And that fucking sucks
Yeah I know we had our ups and downs, but you went way too far in this round
[Verse 5]
Are you mad cause you regret it
Or are you mad cause you didn't break it off with me first?
Doesn't matter cause it hurts, it's the worst (Yeah)
Wish I could go back in reverse
I feel cursed, spit this verse (Yeah yeah)
Back on course, you the source of my pain in my brain
Got me drained can't contain
I'm going insane, don't have a lot that remains
Everything I did was in vain
I never gained from your trust, that's a must
I was crushed (Ayy) but I'll adjust (Yeah)

[Interlude]
I don't wish any hate on you
Yeah
Yeah
But it fucking sucks
No!
But I forgive you, yeah, I ain't gonna hold a grudge, naw
Yeah

[Chorus]
Yeah I'm mad, or I'm sad, I don't know it's a fad
Got me moving like a nomad without a plan (Yeah)
Cause I can't find a single person that can understand (Yeah)
Not sure when this shit began, got me sinking in the sand
Got the music in demand, this shit slams
But it ain't about the plan, holding it back like a dam when I be moving 'cross the land
Using everything I got to withstand, but my mind thinking that I'm contraband like (Ayy)
[Verse 6]
Now I'm insecure, I can't hear these words
Now I'm grinding and I'm sure I'll find time to be mature
But it's hard, got me rapping in the dark
Spitting sparks, Tony Stark, leave my mark
No regrets, only checks, only bless
Not no stress, I'm obsessed don't impress
Got me motivated, sit back and I'm faded
Yeah I've waited, but it's dated
Not to overstate it, but I keep it correlated
I'm frustrated cause I lost all of my hope (Ayy) don't know how to cope
My mind is flashing pics of her like a strobe and I'm spinning like a globe, yeah I spiral

[Verse 7]
Yeah this shit is final, done with all these cycles cause I can't go back
Yeah this shit is stacked
Cut you slack, but you clapped, it's a wrap got me trapped (Yeah)
Inside my head, feeling dead
I guess I misread, I think I was mislead
Needed to be said, I'm sick of all these tears being shed yeah
I just hope we learn from this in the end
Peace