[Verse 1 : XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts
I’m counting down every minute time is moving so slow
Everything’s in slow-mo, every night feels so long
Where is Dora when I’m lost and I don’t know where to go
Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong
I can’t swim but I’m going for the deep end
I can’t win I’ll be dead by the weekend
I got no flowies on my arms and I’m ‘bout to drown
Tryna hold on but I’m going down guess I’m a dead man
Staring at the ceiling of the ocean
Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion
I don’t sleep but I’m dreaming of emotions
I don’t have, I’m broken - the truth’s been spoken

[Pre-Chorus: XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine
[Verse 2 : Lil Yung Pharaoh]
I ain't never been happy try to pretend
OD and get high on the weekend
So low I don't even got no friends
Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end
Got a feeling I won't make it till next year
So you can put a knife through my chest here
I'm a human so it’s natural to shed tears
Living life alone that's my worst fear
And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die
Just to numb the pain I'll get so fucking high
Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes
First I wanna die but now I love life
And I just want someone to understand me
And yeah I got problems that they can't see
So you can put a knife through my chest now
And Imma lay down to rest now

[Pre-Chorus: XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine