Trial Periods (Side Effects)

I'll come back to life when the sun kicks in

And i'll wipe my eyes where the dark has been

And i'll throw off the aches and pains that kept me pinned



Until it's over

Until i'm headed back to fine again



Stabs hurt harder than words – sometimes

I try to keep that in mind

The pen is sharper than the words it writes

And the marks they leave fade in half as much time



Let's drift away, and back, away, and back again

I've only lost enough just to hold on

I might look forward to relief but not the end

I've missed enough, just not all that went wrong



But earth to god, we're running out of sun

And it's far too long a trip back to square one



I'm pulling out of the dive I took

I'm unfamiliar, so tell me where to look

I'm hanging off the wall on it's weakest hook

Until someone dares to tell me i've done good



The lack of words can clear your vision

Apologies are too far-fetched to try, but listen

So far, i’m broken, that’s a given

But i'm not the only one who's lost my mind



I'll pay through blood and sweat and tears much more than time somehow

Rest assured i've done my best to clear the haze

I'm only as upright as me fuel supplies allow

My blinds are shut since i've seen better days



But, earth to god, i'm asking you again

Could you turn the lights back on inside my head?



I’m pulling out of the dive I took

I’m unfamiliar, so tell me where to look

I’ll be straightening my hopes out under stacks of unused books

Until my fever-dreams are understood



I'll come back to life when the sun kicks in

And i'll wipe my eyes where the dark has been

And i'll throw off the aches and pains that kept me pinned



So let's start over

Until i'm headed back to fine again