What if I told you that everything was fine
And you’d believe me, time after time
Well I’m lying, right to your face
Well I’m lying
Rejected, rejections its all I’ll ever known
And I’ve lost all my purpose and I’ve left my home
Was it all worth it
Was it all worth it
The only thing that I know
Is that I’m doing this for myself
I'm doing this for myself
I'm doing this for myself
I'm doing this for myself
I'm doing this for myself
I'm doing this for myself
I'm doing this for myself

Wake up living in this hell that I’m in
So many wounds that I can never mend
Let’s just take it back a year ago
Girls crying in my phone
Seeing me is tiring
I’m sorry I couldn’t help
I loved you you couldn’t tell
I’m so fucking sorry Kel
But you mirrored me with someone else
Now I’m at a job, decent paycheck
But everyday, the fucking same shit
Calling people on their lines
Asking if they wanna sign
But they don’t
And then they're like no no no
Will you just go, go, go
They’re not sold, sold, sold
So I had to go, go, go
Picking up my friend from work
He’s really down and hurt
He has to move right in to my place
But he’s got my back but he’s not okay
I can see it in his face it’s bringing pain to me
But you’ve been hiding
Why are you lying?
Addictions seeping and it’s fucking kill me inside
To see people in my life who I love
Squeeze the soul out of you cause you were never enough
Now I’m sitting here high as I’ll ever be
Regretting all these memories
Wondering what this all meant to me
What if I told you that everything was fine
And you’d believe me, time after time
Well I’m lying, right to your face
Well I’m lying