ALL I HAVE IS ALL I NEED
SCRAPING THE WALL OF MY CELL AS MY FINGERS BLEED
I'VE DONE MY TIME NOW IT'S BONES TO CONCRETE
CURDLED SCREAMS OF BLACKED OUT MEMORIES
How what I thought were some of my best men left when I was dealing with addiction
A thorn in my spine
A pain in my chest -
Fuck them
I didn't forget

But I'm trying to forgive
Can't that be enough for now?
Fill my stomach to empty my mind -
Gorge myself upon the trough as do all beside

Force it back out
BACK
OFF
Bleeding on the floor now -
Give me room, get out
Create the space to kill the bottle
Settle down with the rifts in my liver, and all the friends passed due to their shame of my issues
Ignore it's all conditional -
Conditioned to be alone

I hate myself more...
For everyone that I've kissed - all the times I let my self-respect slip
I CAN'T -
I could never say no when we were laying in bed
Choking you in silent protest