[Intro]
(Yung Clutz)

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I wake up in the mornin' hopin' it's a good day (For real)
And the sunshine, it's so bright with the big smile on its face (On God)
I had a dream last night I was flyin' all through space
Stars and planets in the sky, man they put me in a daze
I have to take antidepressants to have a good day
I try to stay present, some day it will pay
You don't give me my credit, and that shit is due
And I hop on subreddit and write a review
Yeah I smoke on the pressure to keep it together
I'm done with this weather, wanna takе off this sweater
But warmth is not bettеr, I've said that forever
Can't write it in letters, but never say never

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be alive
But I'm scared to die
Oh, I'm so scared to die
I don't wanna be here
But I know I have to
I don't wanna be alive
But I'm scared to die
Oh, I'm so scared to die
I don't wanna be here
But I know I have to
[Verse 2]
I don't know who I am because I lost my sense of self
And back then I was the man, but now it feels like I'm in hell
And I think I lost my friends, but I guess only time will tell
And I miss the times back then when I had good mental health
I wish I didn't need drugs to feel some
And not to be a bitch, but I feel numb
I don't know how to do this freedom
Slip it by, put your pills, and eat some
I'm lookin' at the sky now
Just thinkin' about what comes after death
Don't wanna find out
I'm too scared to die now (I don't- I don't)

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be alive
But I'm scared to die
Oh, I'm so scared to die
I don't wanna be here
But I know I have to (I don't)
I don't wanna be alive
But I'm scared to die
Oh, I'm so scared to die
I don't wanna be here
But I know I have to