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Demons the caught in my mind
Father, just give me a sign
Who can I trust by my side
I try to pray all the time
Let em close, and then stab with a knife
For them girls we just gave em one night
All my brothers, I lean like the sprite
Ain't walking away with no fight
I had to earn all these stripes
I had to stop being nice
I had to dip in the holy water, got a (?) my neck and this ice
I had to sacrifice, like I live to lives
N***a been through the jungle, so anything I do I gotta do it twice