[Verse 1]
When I'm in bliss, I'm longing for hell
It's like I'm hoping for misery inside of my head
It's all hanging by a thread
And I don't wanna be saved
I don't wanna be saved
These thoughts of a deathwish
I'm desperate but I'm terrified of feeling selfish
Inside I'm all alone
Love, you embraced me, but still I feel so empty

[Chorus]
And I
I feel it in my bones, I just lose control
And I
I feel it in my soul, I just can't let go
It gets the best of me
When my mind gets stuck in spinning circles
It gets so hard to reach
The reality I'm grasping for

[Verse 2]
I'm a mess, I'm a beautiful mess
I've been a fellow friend with my demons for so long
Worn a mask, it doesn't fit at all
I made myself believe that I'm here for something
A stranger to the real world
Let me remain the unknown