Ty'Jule
This Is How I Feel
Some days in middle school, I forgot my belt so I was sagging
I went to the office to get a string to keep my pants up
I got my first detention in 7th grade for throwing shade
In 7th grade, I was fresh with the dreads
More than thirty people signed my yearbook that year, I remember that
I was immature, but I grew older, now, I’m more mature
At my 5th grade graduation, I was nervous to go on that stage
I was sweating, but, when I went up there, I wasn’t nervous
Last year, I passed 50 or more accelerated reader quizzes, I got my award
I was misdiagnosed with autism spectrum, that messed me up
The judge said “nothing wrong with him” and didn’t give a check
I was thinking I was on the autism spectrum, then, I came to realization
I think I possibly got misdiagnosed for my IEP with a language impairment
Next year, I’m going to ask my mom to get a re-evaluation
I know if I get a re-evaluation, I’m going pass and not be in the class
I don’t need they help anyway, I’m doing good
Sometimes, I wear glasses, but that don’t mean I’m a nerd
Same girl I said we was going to be boyfriend and girlfriend, now, she saying that ain't true
In middle school, some of her friends constantly remind me and her dating
They got it wrong, we wasn't dating, but we was about to
Her cousin accused me of sexual harassment so I said i looked at another girl
I wasn't even looking at her cousin or the girl I said I looked at
I told a story because I was tired of the drama
I was already dealing with so much so I’m done with this stuff
Im glad I didn’t date because I was immature in 6th grade
When I had beef with other guys on Instagram, now, she followed me
I had a class with her and her friend in first semester
After first semester, her friend blocked me, but it's all cool
One day, her friends was all cool, now, they act like they don’t know me
Me and her cousin handled it and became cool after that
A few months ago, her cousin just unfollowed me on Snapchat
She was just calling me the best rapper, but it's cool
A guy I know tried to rob me for my phone back in middle school
He didn’t give it back so I had him against the wall
Then, instead of using his fists, he had me in a wrestling type of move
I fell down and acted like I couldn’t get up
The reason I couldn’t get up because I was crying
I was crying because I was mad how people keep messing with me
We went to the office, the principal seen it on camera
I didn’t get in trouble, but he got in trouble
Next week, he acting like we friends, he say "wassup."
I seen my family fought my mom, this stuff was crazy
I had to go to my granddad funeral during school, this stuff was crazy
First day of high school, I got suspended for fighting
Now, me and that guy who fought, we cool
I don’t like my teacher from 5th grade, she got on my nerves
If I don’t like someone, I will mostly say it to they face
One of my friend's sister used to be cool, now, we not cool
I can manipulate people, but I don’t always do that
There a lot of things I know, but I don’t tell
If someone come to me with gossip, I'm not going to talk about it
I don’t believe in rumors unless I see proof
Now, I’m staying out of trouble and trying not to get suspended
When my grade at a low grade, my IEP case manager be worried
When I get a bad grade on a test, my IEP case manager be worried
I don't even worry, I know my grade going go up, and that's what it did
You shouldn’t doubt me because most of what I say is true
When I rap on a song, I express myself through the song
Many arguments with my mom, I almost went to juvenile
I was trying to tell the truth, I wasn’t trying to talk back
She don’t understand so that made me mad
She got mad at me for no reason or over small thing
I love my mom, but, there were days, she made my good days bad days
That's why I told many stories to her even when I didn’t want to