[Verse]
People only seem to care about you when you wanna die
Or when you do die
They might break down and cry
I ain't gone lie
I tried maybe once or twice
The devils inside are growing more each time I lie
I can't do this, won't do this
I just wanna sleep
But what if I don't wake up?
Will anybody even weep?
Fuck my problems, can't solve 'em
I'm gonna jump today, maybe tomorrow
I don't know, who cares anyway?
One day I'm hopeful
The next day I'm full of pain
I rhyme dumb shit
I'm slowly going insane
I had a lot of friends
But now I've got like 3
Got huge trust issues
They'll probably betray me
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
Depression takes over
I'll soon be too slow
My dreams are just the pipe
Weird thing is, I don't smoke
I deal with my issues head on
But now my head aches
Mental problems keep me filled with so much angst
I shouldn't hate
I should just congratulate
I lie and say I'm good
When really I'm just filled with rage
I made a change to follow my heart
Lots left and now I'm just lost in art
I cry myself to sleep sometimes
Sometimes I'm too honest
Sometimes I say shit in songs that shouldn't be said
I challenge way too much
Maybe I'd be better off dead
Without music, I wonder if I'd even be around
Without music, I'd just stay the depressed class clown
Without music, I'd just be here in "now"
Without music, I really think I would jump, wow
That's the sad thing about life
I moved states away
But I still have inner strife
Home is where the heart is
But what if you lost it?
What if the heart is off trying to find that young kid?
I don't know
I just wish it does