I'm downtown, half asleep
Under red lights
You're at home, watching the game
I'm seeing bar fights
Know you wish you had me
Wrapped around your finger
Know on my clothes
All that smoky smell still lingers

The gay scene has me so fucked up now
Eyes on me, like a vultures next victim
All the guys, a sea of topless photos
Lick their lips, like I'm wounded deer so slow
It's like I'm trying so hard to fit in again
Feels like high school all over, all the drama again
I hate it all, how you act so innocent
It fucking sucks how you can't just take a minute

Breaking hearts, like they're teeth on pavement
Every Friday, it repeats like a sequence
Vodka, rum, all the booze you could ever name
I can't breathe, when you go and do the same

Boy, I'm, not dumb
Know you want the love
Know you
Know you want the love but
Boy, you're, just, drunk
Keep your head above
Keep your
Keep your head above

So I'll walk through the city
Through a street I've never known
Wasting dollar after dollar
Trying to get a taxi home
Hope I meet a new guy
To replace the dark hole
The one you left in my life
When you left me for a hoe

No you'd rather be at parties
Downing beer after beer
And I'd sit inside my bedroom
Mapping fear, after fear
My mouth feels raw
Jaws like rusting turning gears
'cause now I'm tasting blood
And those football team tears
(I'll never)

I'll never sleep with you
And yeah you can't stand it
Don't you know?
I'm not some high-class faggot
The ones with diamonds
Living rich and lavish
On their knees for guys
Animals so savage

I want a true love
I want a perfect ending
And I'll find that when
Time on you I stop spending
I want a better man
I want a better life
Wanna make up for those times
I held the knife

I don't care
If you thought it didn't mean shit
You stole my heart
And you cut it up in pieces
Kinda' petty how I act
I don't care though
If there ever was an issue
You should have took things slow

It's 'real dark
When I'm with my mind alone at night
This holy city
Kicks up self-hating fights
Hate myself for so long
You took that away
Now you left me
So the thoughts are back again to stay

Boy, I'm, not dumb
Know you want the love
Know you
Know you want the love but
Boy, you're, just, drunk
Keep your head above
Keep your
Keep your head above

So I'll walk through a city
Through a street I've never known
Wasting dollar after dollar
Trying to get a taxi home
Hope I meet a new guy
To replace the dark hole
The one you left in my life
When you left me for a hoe

No you'd rather be at parties
Downing beer after beer
Sit inside my bedroom
Mapping fear, after fear
My mouth feels raw
Jaws like rusting turning gears
'cause now I'm tasting blood
And those football team tears