[verse 1]
Mind like a maze I can't figure it out
Why the fuck I want that gun in my mouth
Wrote that as a teen but depression and doubt
Means I ain’t have the confidence to put the shit out
Sat all alone, why they ain't hit my phone
And i live through these lows, guess I call them my home
I live through them on my own
They say the instability is in my chromosomes
Cos i got like 4 uncles spent time in the pen
Came out and started riding again
It's in my dna that explains why I'm hiding from them
And I hide from my friends
Sitting in the dark living through the lies
And to beat the lows it's either do or die
Guess i’m staring into suicide
In the mirror yelling who am I
Blank faced I'm the boy with no name
Seek nirvana I dream of cobain
And my pockets stained with cocaine
Pipe light gold flame based up no shame
And all the money in the world couldn't buy pity
I only feel the love when you die with me
Through the twists and turns they ain’t ride with me
I’m so lost in my city
And i ain’t solo hoe
Can’t beat daylyt like soulo-hoe
Battling this illness solo though
It’s like i ain’t got a soul no mo
They wonder why i’m rapping over this cold beat
I’m tryna bring back the old me
Before the pregnancy scares, before i sold e
Back when these- [static]

[speech 1: isaiah rashad & ebro]
It’s better
It’s a process though
You ain’t acting like it’s like
Like like …anything be over
It’s a constant…(it’s a constant)
Everyday, everyday you wake up so
It’s…it’s better though
Like i don’t-
I feel good not thinking about it as much (right)
I’m saying, i feel good like (not harping on it?)

[speech 2: danny brown]
I mean adderall, i use those to work
Xanaxes, i use them to go to sleep
On planes and like long overseas flights and shit
You know what i’m saying?
So them the only pills that i really like
You know
Ecstasy is kinda over with
But molly, molly is real fun
If you do it responsibly

[speech 3: schoolboy q & angie martinez]
Making music and like
All that shit
I suck right now (what do you mean?)
Like music-wise right now i suck
Besides my album
I stopped, i just started back picking up

[speech 4: kurt cobain]
I just didn’t wanna live
So…i just thought
If i’m gonna die, if i’m gonna kill myself
I should take some drugs
You know? ha…

[verse 2]
I was scraping from the bottom of the barrel
The feelings of depression sunk into my bone marrow
But you don’t wanna listen, bet you fucking change the channel
Or skip the whole song, the whole album, am i paro?
Cos man i hear whispers, and i see the demons
Is this the price for sin, the price for living like a heathen?
Cos i ain’t shit, i ain’t a fucking role model
By now i lost count of all the pills that i gobbled
I sniffed a little bit, but i just really need the bottle
I had a pack of lies, my house of cards starts to topple
So watch me delve deeper and deeper
The darkness makes me weaker
My friends ain’t helping either
I’m spitting up this ether
Watch me light my cigarette
And blow, ain’t I that n***a yet?
Finger on the trigger bet
I shoot straight through my silhouette
(gunshot)