[Verse 1]
I had a good girl who likes me and trusts
That’s all I really want but I fuck it all up
When things go good is when I leave
Can’t trust these streaks they all deceive
Things are goin great? what’s around the corner?
Someone’s there to kill me with a hoodie and a former...
Friend of mine, who I told everything to
I’ve got all these girls but it’s never been you
You fucked me up, you tore me apart
Ironic how you kill, but still own my heart
You led me on, don’t care bout your excuses
Made me feel weak every night I’d feel useless
Spend it with a drink
Spend it with a blunt
That night was with you
But I still saw love
You’re the only one
Who could make me try drugs
I guess I was right
So blinded by love
This ain’t supposed to be about you
But you cut me up “boo”
Hope you feel so bad that...
That It fucks you up too
I know it’s not godly but I’m only just a man
I man who can hate with a pen inside his hand
I’d say “fuck you” but that won’t solve my issues
All I can do is wonder why I still miss you
Yeah...why do I still miss you?
When someone sees everything that you’ve been through
At 3am, it’ll kinda convince you
Maybe I’m wrong, maybe you cared
But that won’t fix anything I’m facin’ out here
I’m tryin to believe but you made me lose sight
Take the “be” and the “ve” and you’re left with a “lie”

[Verse 2]
Started talking to this girl everything was so sweet
She was cute, she was nice man we had the whole dream
And truthfully the narrative was like “bad things”
And if you know me at all then you know that sings
Couple of rebels, young and disheveled
She wanted me but on a real level
Kept leading her on just like you taught me
I’d be in your shoes 'cause to her I’m exhausting
But I had her wrapped up maybe that’s all I wanted
I swear my intentions ain’t bad
Huh...
My intentions ain’t bad but by these decisions I’m haunted
Since I hit teens I never liked rules
She deserves more, for her heart she’s a fool
She deserves better than a guy who writes letters and doesnt admit when he’s sad 'cuase he’s “cool”
Or maybe keepin' his cool, maybe he’s playin' the fool
Inside he’s so hot
Can’t let no one in, can’t trust her again
More faith in a sin even though he’s found God
He can’t trust a soul and his hearts getting cold
So tired of looking for sunlight in holes
So tired of gettin' no sleep when it’s cold
So tired of lookin' for faith in a hoax
So tired of bein' so tired, I know
The cure to my pain ain’t talkin' to hoes
The cure to being lonely ain’t gettin' so stoned
That you can’t pick up when ya mom hits your phone
Hold me tight, love me close
Yeah I try, you never know
I try to believe but I’m losing the fight
Take the “be” and the “ve” and you’re left with a “lie”

[Outro: Winter Aid]
Put me to sleep I’m tired of my grief
And I’d like for you to love me
To love me
To love me
To love me