[Verse 1]
I put my head in the clouds just so I can bring me down
I trust insecurities and let 'em speak using my mouth
I try to keep my expectations low but I don't know how
And all these voices in my head, they keep on gettin' too loud
I act so cold but everybody knows that I'm insecure
'Cause you're not cool unless you're cruel; first rule of how to be a boy
I never stood out in the crowd, I try to keep my mouth shut
I used to sit alone in playground and lay down in bathroom floors

[Pre-Chorus]
And I've been making my way with words
I hope someday people notice I'm trying
I know I'm a mess but I'm doing the best that a boy can

[Chorus]
I'm a walking disaster, I boil the ocean chasing after
Sleepless nights, they give me the right answers
I'm a White Terror and I might just never change
I'm a fucking quiet sin, a careless siren, a violent dream
Chasing highs in the wildest breeze
I live for the striking, I'm a whirlwind

[Verse 2]
I kill my time doing social media suicide
I make people question, ''What is that shit?'' then they roll their eyes
I act like I don't care but I wear shame and tear-shirt at night
Don't even ask if I have plans 'cause you know I don't have a life
I fall in love with tall guys whose its mouths are full of lies
Have so many issues with their dads, their Mr. always right's
Now he took his phone and I'm alone here on my pillow tight
Monday he'll come back but he won't text me to apologize

[Pre-Chorus]
And I've been making my way with words
I hope someday people notice I'm trying
I know I'm a mess but I'm doing the best that a boy can

[Chorus]
I'm a walking disaster, I boil the ocean chasing after
Sleepless nights, they give me the right answers
I'm a White Terror and I might just never change
I'm a fucking quiet sin, a careless siren, a violent dream
Chasing highs in the wildest breeze
I live for the striking, I'm a whirlwind

[Bridge]
Summers has come, summers has gone
Thinking to myself, ''Why I haven't grown yet?''
I'm all alone slipping through my phone
There's something about it I just can't quit

[Chorus]
I'm a walking disaster, I boil the ocean chasing after
Sleepless nights, they give me the right answers
I'm a White Terror and I might just never change
I'm a fucking quiet sin, a careless siren, a violent dream
Chasing highs in the wildest breeze
I live for the striking, I'm a whirlwind
Oh, I'm a whirlwind