[Verse 1: Rekap]
I used to live in the future but now I'm stuck in the past
My memories are like movies and I keep on running them back
Repeated scenes I've seen so many times, still stunned and aghast
At how my life could be different if I weren't such an ass

So many verses I spat just so I could adjust my label
Craved attention so badly that I could devour a plateful
But I tried so hard to be seen I forgot to set the right angle
Then the camera rolled and I was told I acted disgraceful

Damn, and I had homies who'd show me so much love
But at the time it just never felt like it was enough
Chasing validation from people who didn't give a fuck about me
Leaving the ones who really did behind in the dust

Because they always listened when I was bitching about feeling voiceless
But I ditched them for toxic folks I knew I should be avoiding
Yet I was so thirsty I was happy drinking poison
And all my friends who're warning me were drowned in a sea of voices

[Chorus: keepitinside]
And I was so blind
And I know I can't just heal the scars, I've tried
I want to take it back and make it right
All that I've avoided to be fine
Sorry that I left you all behind
[Verse 2: Rekap]
I'm waking up from dreams, that feel realer than life
And as I fight with my demons hear 'em scream in the dead of night
Now it's got me facing all the darkest [?] of my life
So I decide to scream just to get a glimmer of light

Hitting me right where it hurts, and fuck it might be absurd
But I'm saying sorry to people I haven't spoken a word to in years now
So I can make it clear how much I really changed and I can't be more sincere 'bout
Willing to make up for the errors in my ways every year gets more difficult to bear all of this weight

But I don't even know if I believe all that I say
When I'm repeating the same mistakes I made back in the day
Kicking myself until I reopen up my old scars and go far
But in my wake I leave behind some broke hearts yeah

And now everything I worry about is irrelevant
All that I think about is how I wish I could have been a better friend

[Outro]
And I was so blind
And I know I can't just heal the scars I've tried
I want to take it back and make it right
All that I've avoided to be fine
Sorry that I left you all behind