2-10-1-23

I hope this cures your PTSD

Man I’m all up in my feelings
I hate myself for doing this
But I gotta get it out
Yeah I ain’t knew to this
You done forced me hand
I would never go back
You’ve gone and done it
Live, gone and came back
You got me going crazy
Didn’t wanna write this
Why would you do this
But I can’t hate you

Why would you do that l
I tried to love my life
You think it was a joke
Tried to take my life
This ain’t just a game
Not proving a point
What I did then
I blew this joint
I was outside my body
Man I died
When I left you
Man I cried
And it’s my fault?
And I used you?
How dare you?
Where is your head at?
Are you delusional?
I figured it out
How could you do this though
Man you scare me
With the things you say
Did you care for me
You’re making me pay
You were my first
And you changed me as a person
Gotta go church
Cause you got me cursin
What’s wrong with you
You were perfect then
I messed it up I know
What you doing
I hurt you I know
I changed as a man
But the way you act
I was just a damn rat
You’re proving to me
I can’t trust anyone
I let you in
More than my mum
You were my everything
My princess my angel
You changed my vocabulary
That set sail though
I put you ahead of everyone
Sorry no you were my everyone
Wanted you to be forever
I sacrificed that regret it
Asked for you back regret it
Now I regret it regret it

Tried my very best for you
Got your name tatted on my torso
Not literally but the letter should
I gave to you and I never would
I never would want to hurt you
I gave every garment loved you
Man but I never loved you?
Maybe you wanna cut to it
Blame me that’s how you do it
Wasn’t my fault yeah you knew it
You want beef and I stew it
Sat in the pot and you brew it
Cause you a witch
And I’m a dog
Chasing the pussy
And I’m the dog
You went gay
And I’m the dog?
Gave you depression?
Not cool dog

Everything went down hill after you left
My heart was broken, beat in my chest
No broken
Cardiac arrest
And I say it again lest you forget

You think your middle class white life hard
Come to my deck come take a card
You are ashamed yeah I bet
Your actions appalling
You’re the worst yet
Fed up of calling
I’m so done
Wait no ignorant
Ain’t I hun
Man you’re so dumb
Thinking I lie
Got my head cloudy
Wanting to tie
I’m good with everyone
But you I don’t talk to
You made me into a joke
And I didn’t love you?
Gave my bear (so what)
Ditched people yeah (so what)
Gave all my care (so what)
We were a pair (so what)
I actually died (so what)
You were the first (so what)
But you say I’m wrong? So what?
Yeah I’m wrong and? so what?

You a flower shop
And I was the bee
You turned it around
And you sting me
Boxing Day and
New Year’s Eve
I wrote about you
Then I leave
It’s hard for you?
What about me
I remember everything
Do you remember me?
I am the flower shop
You are the bee
You turned it around
And you stung me