[Produced by Zdon The Rapper]


[Chorus]
Life is hallow in these dark valleys
I can see you and your sorrow staring back at me
Tell me is it really real or are you just acting
This is how I feel
I feel so alone in my mind sometimes
Nothin was the same since I took my life
I been in my dreams tryna look alright
I’m tryna see your soul
All I know is I got nothing left to lose
I been on my own for way too long to move
On and every day I wake up feelin blue
So I work until my lungs collapse the truth
Is I know I make mistakes but we all do
It’s been hard because I feel so strange and you
Aren’t beside me I don’t know what I once knew
So I work until my lungs collapse to prove


[Verse]
All of my haters who say I won’t make it all wrong
Swear love is all that I’m on
I got a couple of words that I wrote in this song
Dedicated to my mom
Lately Been trippin and thinkin that my life is gone
Asking myself where is John
It’s been unfortunate fortunately imma morph it into an impressive performance impressin upon all my listeners love in my songs
Swear imma try be strong from the night till the dawn
Even if I don’t belong
Back and I been on it for goners and livid indifferent menacin sinners who been in predicaments
Evident to them in a different position to never step in they section
Livin for the less thans in a society
Where the stress been infestin
Depression is present
Pestilence pressin and destined to fail is the future for freshman
Been attesting the illness incessantly plaguin the world and the proof is the death in it
Left in it, made a nest in it
Know that I’m blessed in it
Never do rest in it cuz i gotta
A lotta passion for healin they sadness cuz I know what it feel like to feel like a casket is better than the place that im at
Tryna give a little bit of love for healin of that and I’m back with a couple other tracks and I never slack cuz I gotta lotta love in me I could rap
Fact is I been diagnosed with bipolar depression and 4 psych ward bills are pressin. And
I’m just tryna write a song for the struggles of the people in the world who been feelin like


[Chorus]
Life is hallow in these dark valleys
I can see you and your sorrow staring back at me
Tell me is it really real or are you just acting
This is how I feel
I feel so alone in my mind sometimes
Nothin was the same since I took my life
I been in my dreams tryna look alright
I’m tryna see your soul
I’m livin in a wishin well
Wish me well
Wish I could tell myself I still got a will to live but I’m dyin in my mind right now
It’s hard to move on
Livin in a prison cell
Dreamin again schemin again we’ve been a sinful soul tryna make a better invincible
But do you hear me
Who is the real me


[Verse]
Ask myself that every single day
Last year held back every single wave
Now I gotta come back every single stain still inside of mine that mind of mind’s a maze
Dealin with the pain tryna make an aim better than a dream but I feel insane and it’s crazy
Stayin in my lane. No I ain’t the same. Been against the grain. Illness in my brain. And it’s hazy
Reality twisted
It since then’s been a rough road riskin it all for my passion
You can tell by every single action I take imma love till the day that I pass and I break
Back in to make a couple paths for the lake
Do it for the last in state of mind where you feel alone and your on your own livin in your zone never home feelin like a drone caint get a grip. Get a grip they say
They don’t understand what’s it’s like with the change in your mainframe. Better not trip they say
They don’t understand where you been what you seen, what To fiend feels like. They don’t understand your life. They don’t understand your death. They don’t understand what’s left that you can’t quite tell which is which. They don’t understand your stress
This is for the ones feelin lost and they tossed in whirlwind of the world and they world ends and it twirls and it curls in like a pearl bent and it broke when it unfurls know your not alone in your world when
Everything is breaking down
Nothing is the same and now
Everybody’s changed and how
Different it is around
They don’t understand that


[Chorus]
Life is hallow in these dark valleys
I can see you and your sorrow staring back at me
Tell me is it really real or are you just acting
This is how I feel
I feel so alone in my mind sometimes
Nothin was the same since I took my life
I been in my dreams tryna look alright
I’m tryna see your soul