Devi McCallion
Understanding
[Rook]
Grey city, 2016
Night bus home, N19
Chain link, rain and concrete
Lashing out and falling
Picking quarters up off the hardwood
Skytrain, Joyce-Collingwood
Losing floating knowing
Stopping pain from showing
[Rook, Rook & Devi]
Hell to me in the moment
Scream internally
Soul exits me
Through all the lines i write
In basements far away
If I can purge
This broken hurt
In haunted words
Will it surround me?
And like the city nights
Just drift away
[Devi]
I couldn't figure it out
I couldn't fix it by myself
I couldn't do it alone
I couldn't figure it out
I couldn't fix it by myself
Everyone else seems so strong and
I tried to offer up my pain to be understood
But I don't think it's my pain that can be understood
Or needs understanding
Thеre's not a lot of pain in the world that makes any sеnse
I wonder where all this pain comes from
And this evil is
And where it lives
[Rook]
Future wide open
But defined as broken
Every achievement
Hoping, wishing, aching, never knowing
The pain I write about
So I don't fucking die
Interpreted as everything
I've got to offer in this life
Fuck no!
[Rook & Devi]
Time is a circle
Forever hurtful
No hesitation
Nostalgia or ideation
[Devi, Rook]
I couldn't figure it out
I couldn't do it alone
I couldn't fix it by myself
Everyone else seemed so strong
I tried to offer up my pain to be understood
But I don't think it's my pain that can be understood
Or needs understanding
There's not a lot of pain in the world that makes any sense
Maybe people need to be understood instead
I tried to understand why it happened like that
But it just made my soul break down (Break down and)
I didn't want things to go like that
For a while I was confused
But now I think I understand