i'm scared
what if it's not good enough?
what if no one will listen?
is anyone there?
could you hear me scream
if i pressed my lungs to your heart?

my reality contorts and shifts all the time
i hardly know what feels real
and what's just a movie
a silly little movie
i want to feel again
but how could i let myself merit such unjust feelings?

i can't remember the day you left
it was slow, unforgiving
i cried and tore my heart out
how could you leave me?
was i not good enough?
did i do something wrong?

i listen to ballads & waltzes
they remind me of a life i nеver lived
the wisp of lilac and vanilla scеnted air
the golden fields, a happy home
just to wake up, cold & alone
i often wonder why
we all look up at the same sky
and see the same shades of blue
so why must i suffer more than you?