12 or 1 AM, on the dot, is now on the clock
I awake on the couch, ouch
Feels like I’ve had a smile for quite a while
Or, should I say a grin
Either way, my face aches again
Looks like another one of those days again
3:05 comes just in time just for me to see you in my thoughts once again
And to myself I thought damn
I haven’t had any sleep since 12 o’ clock
So I rise to glance at my window
And to my surprise
My eyes stare at the skies that have changed from dark blue to light
Silly right?
I mean, for me to think staying awake all night is alright
5:30, my cheeks still hurting
Because I was flirting, with you
Well, in my head
While the world was in bed, instead I lay awake
And stay awake, because you couldn’t stay away
From me
6:43, its hot
Sweat drops from my head to my socks
I walk to the bathroom and, it’s even hotter
Cold water fills the empty wrinkles in my hand
Dry, now wet
I remove the sweat with a splash
My hand and my face clashes
I look up to see you in the glass
I start to breathe heavily as I see your reflection instead of me
And then I gaze in the direction of your reflection to see
Pure perfection… then stop
To see 7 o’ clock
When will it stop? When, will it stop
Do I want it to stop?
That’s the question I dread
When will my head stop this production of thought of you?
8:02, the sky is now light blue and
The clouds are in sight too and
I still miss you
And as much as I would like to let you know what you do to me
You have me awake from 1 to 2, 2 to 3, truthfully
I can’t, I’m not ready
10 o’ clock of course, my brother is playing video games
Grease spraying from the pan of cooking ham, my mom with the book in hand
Other brother is still in bed, dad at work
And I’m in the shower
Trying to pretend that I slept for at least an hour
Eyes blood shot red, pain in my head
Out the shower I see your name spelled neatly on the same mirror
Am I insane?
Or is it just my mind playing games
Fresh and up for breakfast, eat
Then I break fast for work
Just a cashier and... (?)
12 o’ clock, and what?
You’re still in my thoughts
To be continued