These pain pills are depressing
Said she sent a text, I guess I never got the message
Hard headed, all the stress keeps my heart arrested
Will you still love me even if I never learn my lesson
These are my confessions based off my broken blessings
Running from affection back to my money making methods
My obsession with the streets fuels my aggression
Burden by my past left with so many questions
Life is a crash course such a hard road
Wore my heart on my sleeve now my arms broke
Still the scars show broken by my misery
Xanax bar please erase me from my memories
I've been trapt inside my mind like I'm doing time
I see darkness very seldom see the sun shine
These feelings that I'm feeling I swear to god don't nobody know
Heart broken and I'll be damned if I let it show
The pain increases as the pills tear apart my soul
No second guessing, do me a favor and let me let you go
A lot of people say they love me but I'm all alone
Consequences from my actions now my mind gone
It's so hard to carry on when your on your own
Now I'm spending nights praying that I make it home
Conversations on the phone and missed calls
Baby mama slammed the door and told me get lost
She still holds a grudge, I guess I can't escape the past
Get involved with different women but they never last
Now I never laugh, lord be my witness
Karma caught me before I ever found forgiveness
This shit is crazy, it's repetitive it happens daily
Once a good man now I'm the way that y'all made me
Steady turning pages in search of a different chapter
Welcome to the aftermath of my disaster
My mind is racing faster for the finer things
But lately I don't give a fuck about a damn thing
Gone insane coz my life ain't a fuckin game
Try to take what I love and you gon meet the flame
Motherfucker I ain't playin on no fake shit
Runnin out of time and I done lost my patience
Every day is a test, livin ain't that easy
My drug habits out of hand and it keeps increasing
Now I'm having long conversations with my heart
Apologizing coz I let a bitch tear it apart
Surrounded by the marijuana smoke in my cigar
Sitting all alone, now I'm back at the start
Searching for some closure but it seems my soul is scared
Now as I grow older I see love is a facade
With the world on my shoulders feeling I'm in the dark
Shattered my ambitions out here barred
I gotta pray to god that I make it through the evening
The heat I gotta keep incase my enemies get even
I gotta stay alive for my child, that's my reason
This is what I hide inside and these are my feelings