My life is it mine? Pillars invade a garish succession of hair sweat semen how does it parade unseen? I gag in reflection saliva and venom an attempt to exorcise what you don't recognize crimes and trespasses condoned at best lauded repeated at worst a sufferer's burden my words are they mine inserted against my will voiceless displays pushed further in me an attempt to exorcise what you don't recognize violations forgiven at best impotent at worst sufferer alone identity shifts ally to enemy enemy to parent parent to me pushed pushed further... further further in the dark