Keylan Bankston
God Is A Mute
This might be the last time I ever call cause every time I call you ignore me
All I wanted was somebody I could talk to
Somebody to truly understand my story
Lately all I hear are my echos and it sounds like silence
Which is kind of ironic cause thats all I get from you
You got this down to a science
I pray and I pray and I pray every day the preacher he says all it takes is some faith
When i give all my faith and I get nothing back i think all of its fake
I see none of the love I feel all of the hate
I said I was sorry for my mistakes
Ive been running in circles
Running in place
Picking my brain for something I can say
I feel lost
On top of that I feel numb
When Im down and out I get mad
I look up at the sky and scream at the top of my lungs
Is this what you planed for me
Man this shit must be a joke
I got bills to pay I got mouths to feed I swear to god Im sick and tired of being broke
Ive been calling Ive been calling
Trying to get through to you
Ive been lost Ive been lost and
Ive been looking for the truth
Ive been going out of my way
Ive been searching for the proof
Doing 90 on the highway
Clouds blocking my view
Ive been praying Ive been praying
Do you hear what Im saying
I wish you'd answer my call
Cause I don't think I can make it
I've been calling Ive been calling trying to get through to you
I've been calling Ive been calling I guess god is a mute
Look man I know that Im a mess
Ive been working so hard I just think I need a rest
Ima work myself to death I can feel it in my chest
I can feel it in my bones Im exhausted
My stomach is turning Im feeling nauseous
My family telling me to be cautious
I refuse to let my hustle be halted
Cause I don't got no time for no breaks
Ive been finding my way
Finding my place
Yeah you say that you love me
Don't you lie to my face
Every dollar I make is 10 dimes i won't waste
Ive been fading the bank Ive been lining the safe
I got more money now then I ever have made
I have strayed far away from what I really wanted that I can't be happy just cause I am paid
Every thing feels fake as fuck
I can't make this up
I light my cigarette and take another puff and get mad at god like he made it tough
Like he raised my debt like he became a threat
Shits got me stressed I listen to the voices in my head thats got me questioning if god is real then how come we ain't never met
Ive been calling Ive been calling
Trying to get through to you
Ive been lost Ive been lost and
Ive been looking for the truth
Ive been going out of my way
Ive been searching for the proof
Doing 90 on the highway
Clouds blocking my view
Ive been praying Ive been praying
Do you hear what Im saying
I wish you'd answer my call
Cause I don't think I can make it
I've been calling Ive been calling trying to get through to you
I've been calling Ive been calling I guess god is a mute
Tell me has anyone ever talked to the man
Have you ever laid eyes on his plans
Have you ever been touched by his hands
I mean in real life like physically touched
Ive been thinking and I think Im bout to mentally bust
The book of god I swear to god isn't simple enough
I get to reading and think I need a sip of my cup
Feels like Ive been down for the long haul
All I want to do is talk to you god could you pick up I ain't trynna have a long talk
In my mind you might not even be real
Ive been talking to the walls and the sky and my fear
They say you can manifest yourself but you never appear
This is the final frontier I might just disappear
Doubt seeping in the feeling is overwhelming
The grounds sinking in I pray that my feet don't fail me
Shout at the sky, why am I always yelling
The thought of you really being real was so compelling
I guess everybody was wrong
I call over and over and you don't answer the phone
I get the feeling that you like to see me feeling alone
Im taking shot after shot until all my feeling is gone
Ive been calling Ive been calling
Trying to get through to you
Ive been lost Ive been lost and
Ive been looking for the truth
Ive been going out of my way
Ive been searching for the proof
Doing 90 on the highway
Clouds blocking my view
Ive been praying Ive been praying
Do you hear what Im saying
I wish you'd answer my call
Cause I don't think I can make it
I've been calling Ive been calling trying to get through to you
I've been calling Ive been calling I guess god is a mute