Damsel Is Depressed
Now i’m fucking worthy (Live Freestyle)
Transcribed lyrics
Eyes so cold
I swear they know
They promised by they won't tell a soul
I get by while getting low
And i get high and go back to be afraid of getting old
They don't mind wasting time until i can answer the phone
I can't wait to do got loads to prove
But i go back to
Yeah there's so many things that i should'nt have done
So many people that shouldn't have run
And now the phone is ringing and i want some fun
And now the phone is ringing and i want some fun
Everybody's loose hanging on a cloud
I get back to my old ruse, whereabouts
What the fuck am i gonna do inside
Thеse four walls screaming suicide
Thеse four walls screaming suicide
These four walls scream it's you and i
Are you sick of me ? better run and hide
Im so so lost and spinning
Oh my god, god praise the weekend
Where i could stop acting so silly
Go bend , go back, go bend, go back, go bend
Binge watching netflix, i wish i had better topics to talk about
In my conversations about my whereabouts
But i get so lost in my head , i don't need no cloud
They wanna help me
Barely understand my tank is forever on empty
They barely phase me
When they say i hope you have a good day
Yeah it best be
To leave me right alone in these four walls
Best to leave me alone in these four walls
I can't help you out by letting you feel like you helped me
Please go back and neglect me
They say i should get to sleep
But when i'm awake already half asleep
And they say i should get to sleep
But when i'm half awake already count the sheep
Cause we matter the way that we die
And we rot in a coffin, don't ask ourselves why
And we try to get bigger than life and bigger than god
And we try to make it make less sense
But i don't understand why we try
It all seems so bleak, i can't pretend that i'm surviving
I wish i was okay with never rhyming
Cause it makes me so blue and i can't wait to hide it
Past lives excite me
I don't know why they seem like they were better off without me
My soul is a sunken place
I can't erase the things that go round my head
I don't understand why the dead don't just stay dead
Why can't the dead just stay dead
Forever roaming my head
How can i get away
How can i get away
How can i get away
How can i get away
I feel like they tried to take me to the downer downer downer
Down this place , i have never found it, found it in my heart to forgive
In my heart to believe 'em that they know better than me
They cripple me, they cripple me
They cripple me they cripple me
They cripple me they cripple me
I got a taste of paranoia and it's biting my lips
Now they sip on my drink i don't know what to think
I got a taste of paranoia and it's biting my lips
And yeah i had enough to drink i don't know what to think
We all go in those streets i don't know what you think
Their hearts heavy, spiteful i don't know what this is
I can barely recollect all the shit that you did
Yeah you think they tried you but you're on trial
You think you run this town, poetry at your tips
You're not that precious, not that precious
These bones stay up for a reason
These bones stay up for a reason
Grow so fast when i feed em
They grow so big you can eat em
Foul play, foul play
If i could stay away, you bet that i would
I would stay away
Treat paranoia like cancer - no cure
I try to make sure im sober on the week days
Not sure, not sure that i can do it
I walk by you just for an instant
So you can get a look of everything you got a taste for but cannot get
They say to defeat them
You must know the ways of your enemies - so i teach them
I treat 'em like my enemy, i treat 'em like my friend
I treat them like my mother, and i treat them like a 10
But i hate everyone i know so i guess it's the same
I hate everyone i know so i guess it's the same
It's gonna rain, you know it's gonna rain
Never trust your own seed
They'll grow up just like you but also like me
It's hate after hate after hate
And i guess we are caught up to date
Yeah you can leave it all up to fate
But you give what you gave what you get
Bathe in the sour just bathe in the sour bathe in the sour now
And if you think it's gonna turn out better, for the better or the worse
Everybody knows that we got a curse over our head
It's never going away and we're all gonna
We're gonna read ahead spoiler alert is we're gonna die
And tha't okay i'm never bout to cry about what is gonna happen
Cause i cry about what is now
I cry about what happened not about what is about
Everybody knows that i'mma shout it out from the rooftops
That the end is near, that the end is near
But i don't wanna be that way right now cause everybody else is doing it
You know i gotta be that special snowflake in the christmas
With no presents santa is a madman
I don't like the way they creep up on us every holiday, every holiday
They swear it's gonna be the same, it's never gonna be the same,it's never gonna be the same
So you prop up you prop up you prop up your clothes
They shrunk in the wash they shrunk in the wash
So what are you gonna do for the holidays?
Uhh that's the question that i hate most of all, that i hate most of all
I'm at everyone's beck and call cause i got no plans on holidays
I don't trust familial values and the things they hold
So i try to cheat my way through life by never seeing anyone i grew up with
I try to cheat through life and act like i'm a different person now
I'm a different person now, that wasn't me back then
I'm a different person now umm. that wasn't .. that wasn't me back then
I didn't.. i didn't understand what you were trying to say
They talk to me like i'm barely there
They talk to me like i'm barely there and they got me all running scared
Running for the hills
I would never fucking dare to heal back then and now i guess it's kinda the same way
But i have a different kind of frame so maybe everything has changed
Maybe everything has changed
Maybe if i jump to conclusions they will understand how much i grew up when
Maybe if i jump to conclusions they will understand i'm not the same person
I'm so tame so tainted at once
And i hate resenting all the ones i should've trusted
And i hate the way that they all fall down like roaches
And i hate how much i misevaluated the situation
It's just another sip of paranoia
Yeah i guess i kinda knew ya
But it's a sip of paranoia and i wish i never knew ya
Yeah i guess you seem better now
You don't look like who you were
I guess you seem better now but you're still at bully at worse
**mess*
Can't believe how much you've changed
I can't believe how much you've changed
We should hang out
Yeah its just the same as it should've been
We should hang out
We should fucking hang out
Can you get me in your show? we should hang out
You should, you should get me in your show
Lets hang out
Yeah you always stole the show
You should hang out with me
I'll be fucking worth it, i'll be fucking worthy
I'll be fucking worthy, i'll be fucking worthy
I'll be fucking worthy
Now i'm fucking worthy, now i'm fucking worthy
Now i'm fucking worthy
Now i'm fucking worthy , now you see what's worth in me
Now you think i'm worthy
I think you're the worst
I think you're the worst
I think you're the worst