It's eating me up
I wasn't made for this
Expectation asks for more of me
Than I could ever give
But try I have
And try I will
Try so hard that maybe by the end
I won't need some pill
To be happy
To be here
I've given things time
To get better
But a passive role in anything
Never got me any where
Am I going?
Do I know where I've been?
Feels like I've lived in a fever dream
Since I don't know when
I'll bе happy
When I'll be herе
And I'm well aware
Of all I'm not
The infinite lists
Haunt my thoughts
I know I could do better
Get myself together
But there's a trap I've fallen in
And I'm far too deep within
To be happy
To be here