[Intro]
How am I here I don’t wanna be here
Give me a gun and I might disappear
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How am I here I don’t wanna be here
Give me a gun and I might disappear
...

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites
[Verse 1: capoxxo]
Baby do you care about me at all
I think I might pop a pill and end it all
We're hanging out at the mall
Girl do you remember last fall
You told me that you'd love me forever
But I should've known that you're a liar
You fucking set my heart on fire
When does love work like never
I don't wanna think about December
I was fucked up the whole winter
Holding back tears at family dinner
I been off a xan I can't remember
And I hate my life
I just wanna die
I know it sounds so corny
But it's not a lie
Who are you I cannot move
Blues clues look at my shoes
I just don’t know what I'll do
I'm scared what about you
Who are you I cannot move
Blues clues look at my shoes
I just don’t know what I'll do
I'm scared what about you
[Bridge: heroine diaries]
How am I here I don’t wanna be here
Give me a gun and I might disappear
Pass me another I just wanna see clear
Give me a line I don’t want a fucking beer

[Verse 2: yung shame]
I just want a feel even if it’s pain
Pop another pill looking at the rain
Looking at my cup seeing that it’s stained
Just like the scars all up on her legs
Wish you didn’t do that to yourself
But we both just need some help
Always cry when I’m by myself
Always stuck in hell
I really need you right now
Just like a sprite and some ice now
For the tech in the pint now
Ya girl ya how’d ya get so nice now
Ya girl how’d you get so nice now
Ya used to just always make me frown
And I’d wish you’d pipe down
But now I wish you’d come around

[Chorus: heroine diaries]
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites
They just wanna see me go and fall (They irreverent)
They say I do drugs I do em all (I do)
I’m fucked up girl I missed your call (I’m sorry)
On that ketamine I’m off the wall (Off the wall)
No vans Ricky on my feet (Rick Owens)
Think I’m dying feel my heartbeat (I don’t care though)
Might OD feeling obsolete (I don’t care though)
Or kill myself join the elites