Nostalgia Pt. 1

Verse 1:

Hidden in these lyrics are feelings I can’t explain

I give it the keys, but my heart just stays in its cage

Because once we were together now she doesn't feel the same

And even worst, she doesn’t know half of the pain

Plus I’ve developed more feelings, Like the Titanic, How tragic

And every time I think about her I begin to feel nostalgic

Now my mind’s all chopped up like a tree and a lumberjack

Now I can’t go to sleep, labeled as an insomniac

My friends say to let it go, and stop being so distraught

But how can I let it go, when it haunts my very thoughts

I’ve tried to hold it in, and now I’m feeling weak

But, I can’t hold this burden so I’ma let my heart speak

I still have you stitched within the framework of my mind

I’ve begun to start wishing that I could turn back time

You’re running through my mind, tape recorder, on repeat

Memories just flowing, writing it down on a sheet

See, you’ve gotta hold of me, don’t even know your power

You’ve destroyed, knocked me down, 9/11, twin towers

But, If you ever loved me, you would’ve just said so

And If I were you, I would’ve never let me go



Verse 2:

I have these memories, and it starts to kill me

I don’t need these thoughts,.I need the real thing

Now a relationship is something we will never have

Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had (NF)

Philippians 4:13-God I need some strength

Cuz I can’t find it in me, to go another day

And the holes have gotten way too deep for me to run

I'm fighting with my soul which has yet to see the sun

And I guess that one’s on me, Lord knows there are many versions

Cuz the facade that I put up for you is just a diversion

This masquerade I hide behind is only an illusion

I gotta ask God to help me get through this confusion

But I still see your face within the mirror of my heart

And every time, I break it before I even start

If the pain is a prison, give me the keys to this cell

As I’m praying the feeling leaves me as I scream and I yell



Chorus:

I think my happiness delayed

Need an escape from all the pain

I’ll take anything

To evaporate the rain…

You were in a broken place

I came and tried to save the day

But now, just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same...



Verse 3:

I’m hating that I lost you, that’s something that I dread

I guess this wasn’t real and It was made up in my head

Like a leaf on a river, I'm still held in chains

By everything in the past, and the things I can’t explain

I still have those notes we wrote, Te amo’s what it read

I still have your last goodbyes repeating in my head

I start to write a song, and my mind’s a battleground

Guess I can’t keep holding on, that’s something that I found

I know you’re still looking for a man, too bad it isn’t me

But I can’t move on so fast like you did so easily

People telling me to move on, Not sure if I can start

Even though you hurt me, ever since we drifted apart

Not sure what I did, I guess it was your time to go

It’s only pain and torture, I wouldn’t expect you to know

I know I’m not able, to clean the mess I made

I know it’s my fault, so I’m not gonna debate

I’m pushing them up, I have no tricks up my sleeve

I just hope your next man, treats you better than me...