[Verse 1]
These thoughts, only a symptom to pave way
Full-fledged addiction it unfolds and takes shape
Not to the bottle that I know I now crave
But the existence I pray that won’t take me

God you know I'm trying to be better off sober
Trying just to get over the guilt that I can’t get control of
Instilled by pain I can't get a hold on

[Chorus]
If only I could pick myself up
I'd learn to prove you wrong
I've been holding back
This feeling that I’m all alone

[Verse 2]
This infection has changed and reshaped me
I’m ashamed and afraid you’ll replace me
Every breath I take laced with complacency
Plaguing my brain, there’s no escaping this

How have I sunk this low
Failing to breathe
I can't breathe
I'm losing control

[Chorus]
If only I could pick myself up
I’d learn to prove you wrong
I’ve been holding back
This feeling that I’m all alone

If only I could pick myself up
I’d learn to prove you wrong
I’ve been holding back
This feeling that I’m all alone

[Outro]
Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
My thoughts bury me alive
Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
My thoughts bury me alive

Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine
My thoughts bury me alive

Bury me alive

If it's all in my head, why I'm alive all the while
I wish I was dead

Why am I alive
Why am I alive