Maybe you'd like the old me
Maybe you'd like the me I suppress
Maybe you'd like the cold me
Maybe you'd like the me I show less
Maybe, maybe, maybe
I wear my heart on my sleeve, people come and they leave
Maybe I'll find someone someday, that will promise to stay with me
And maybe actually stay true and show me
That they mean at least one word, and maybe even all three
Maybe they'll show me what the middle word means
Cause I don't really know how it feels, for real
I hear a lot of lies, and I don't know truth
Maybe I'm just wasting time, maybe I'm running outta youth
Depression bitin' at my heels, anxiety that's just how I feel
I can't see much ahead, the road is kinda foggy
I wanna elevate my mind but I'm still waitin' in the lobby
Wanna make changes to my life but I'm in the same place
I look in the mirror, and I can't even recognize the man's face
Cause I'm locked in a prison inside of my own mind
It's just me, myself, and I, I'm solitarily confined
The old me, the present me, the me I wanna be
Pick a me, any me, just one of those three
Where'd you go? I thought you loved me, like I was the one
But you just like everybody else, when things get tough you run
You countin' cards, playin' me in my own game
Why so serious? I'm goin' insane
Maybe you'd like me better if I was more simple
Maybe you'd like me, if I didn't have to pull
The weight of these problems, if you didn't know I was stressin'
Maybe if I could recognize my reflection
Maybe if my intentions were just to be messin' with your body and play with your mind
But I got more respect than that, you a dime
From both perspectives, my heart and my eyes admired you
But you were just an addict and I was just another high to you
I can't divide my soul from my complexity
But for change it is necessity
I'm tired of all these lies
But at least I know, you're either a blessing or a lesson to me
I gotta make a confession, I use my pain as a weapon
But what's more admirable, a confession or a question?
I ain't up here to flex for anyone else's respect
Wait, I wanna make a correction
I don't wan't your recognition, but maybe I'm my obsession
Did you hear my inflection, I said I AM my obsession
Maybe that was the obstacle between me and a warm reception
Maybe that was the connection between me and my depression
Maybe that was the only thing holding me back from my death wish
Maybe a section of my brain really is my infection
And I ain't reppin' Funk Volume when I say I got an Ill Mind
I been sick since conception, I'm surprised I'm still alive
There's levels to this, inception of my mind
And it's my medicine
I got emotion in these lines
I find my potion in these rhymes, it's prescribed
Now I'ma flip the script and see what's on the other side
Flip the prescription, flip the frame
Now it's landscape, different perception
Maybe I'll find peace, maybe I'll find light
All I know is I'm done bein' confined
And maybe just maybe you'll understand what I feel and why
Because maybe, just maybe, you have a mind just like mine